Today was an emotional day on so many different levels.
This morning I woke up and got HBear ready to go to the airport. We were picking up my MBesty’s Mom from the airport after being away for months. It was a BIG day and the countdown had been on for quite a while 🙂 Needless to say my MBesty was VERY excited to see her Mom and HBear’s Besty was ecstatic to see her Nana.
Before we even left the house I had already cried twice.
I am ashamed to say this but… I felt jealousy.
I felt sad that I would never get to see my mom again. That HBear would never get to see her Nana ever again. The green eyed monster reared it’s ugly head and I felt jealous that anyone, even my MBesty had that opportunity that I so wish for.
This evening as I write I only feel thankful. I feel love, anger and I feel fear. I feel helpless and I feel like I made some bad decisions but no, I no longer feel jealousy.
When we got to the airport we are right on time actually a minute late 🙂 the girls all ran in and I parked and met them in there. After about 10 minutes of waiting my MBesty got a text from her mom saying that something was wrong and they were to remain on the plane. For the next 3 1/2 hours we sat in the Kelowna airport while the plane, each bag and every passenger was searched for a bomb. It was terrifying. There was no information. We sat there not knowing what was happening and the only info we were receiving was from confused and scared passengers on the plane. It was so scary I really don’t have words to describe the afternoon. I’m not really an emotional person. I don’t really do well with that kind of stuff and when MBesty finally realized that her mom was in danger she broke… OMG she is a single Mom who is tough. I mean TOUGH lol to see her so scared was heartbreaking and scary. I thought… OMG what if she has to go through what I went through. What I am going through.???? OMG omg…
I hate being helpless! I hate not being able to help my friend! I hate not knowing what is going on! I went up to every security, RCMP, ambulance driver, paramedic, and bomb squad person that I could find asking them questions… I have my five-year-old daughter in this airport and her best friend do I need to leave? Do I need to get them out here for their safety? What is going on? When they began locking all the doors and the speaker kept repeating “Kelowna Airport is on the highest level of heightened security.” I began letting every imaginable possibility play out in my head. Every time I left the airport to plug the meter I pictured the airport behind me exploding with HBear in it.
Just remembering each terrible thought I had for those very LONG hours makes me want to throw up.
Terrifying.
This is not a suspense story, we all got out okay. We still don’t know exactly what happened, someone was carted off in cuffs but my MBesty’s mom… she’s home now. She’s safe and sound. HBear’s Besty has her Nana home tonight, they get to cuddle up together. My MBesty has her Mom under her roof. They are all safe and seeing them hug today as tears streamed down their faces made me shed my own tears of relief, happiness and LOVE.
No jealousy… I’m thankful. I am SO happy that that family has a happy ending today.
Today could have turned out so different.
It’s weird how a day is just a day until its not.
Hug your family close tonight. I know I sure did.
I took some pictures but they suck because my hand was shaking and people were moving fast…
With the horrific shootings this week at our capital and the terror of today… I have to wonder, WTF? What is happening in this world? Who thinks they have the right to do this? Who presumes that they are important enough to end someone or many someone’s lives? There were children on that plane. How will they sleep tonight? HBear just came out of bed saying she had a bad dream. Really? I wonder why? What is going on and HOW can we make it stop? How can I protect my girls from unknown threats? How can I sleep knowing shit like this happens, even in my little piece of Okanagan paradise?
OK that’s enough because I am making myself sick.
I obviously did not make dinner tonight lol. The other night I tried something new with a few of my favorite comfort ingredients… perogies and Kube 🙂 This was pretty good… not sure if my little Ukrainian Granny would have agreed but we all enjoyed it 🙂
3 green onions, sliced
Put a layer of perogies in your baking dish top with onions,
dollops of sour cream,
kube,
shredded cheese,
and then repeat the layer.
When the casserole is done take in out of the oven and let rest for about 10 minutes
sprinkle with bacon and green onions and Dig in.
